I don’t know…. What have I been Thinking ? I wish I knew.
Maybe in a way I figure I’m doing to ” Them ” as I’ve been ” Done To ” in My Past.
Yet if that’s the Case it’s not really Fair to Everyone concerned, since not ALL of ” Them ” are deserving of This. On the Other Hand…. ” Who I am to Decide WHO is Deserving, and Who’s Not Deserving ? ” I’m not Judge and Jury, after all. I’ve got to remember that, despite situations I’ve been through in My Past. I still can’t ” Play God ” with Other’s Hearts and Souls…. Especially when ” Other’s ” have done This to Me before. It wasn’t right when They did it, and it’s Still Not Right for Me to do it – even to Them.
Maybe ALL of This has been some sort of ” Power Trip ” Thing.
Perhaps that’s it.
Because when else have I EVER had 3 Men After Me at the SAME TIME ?
The Clear Answer is… NEVER !
I’d be Lying to Myself… and Lying on Here.. IF I said that it’s Not a ” Good Feeling “.
It’s sort of a combination of a ” Thrill “… and a ” Super Confidence Booster “… ALL In ONE.
Besides…. The KEY Complication to ALL of THIS…
Is the FACT that I do Honestly ” LOVE ” ALL 3 of Them !
Yes, I know that it probably sounds a bit Nuts for Me to say that, but it’s the Honest Truth.
I Do Love Each of Them…. They’re EACH ” Lovable ” in T
heir Own Ways… for Their Own Reasons… and for Each of Them there’s an ” Undeniable ” Attraction between Them and I.
But is it FAIR to Them ????
More than Likely the Clear Answer to That is a Firm ” NO ” !
Does realizing that Stop Me ? …. lol
Nope ! … Unfortunately….
Maybe it really should…. but Then I’d be denying how My Heart and Soul really Feels about Each One of Them.
What’s a Passionate Woman to Do ? ….
Should I Deny My Inner Passion ?
Should I Deny what I Feel Deep in My Heart and Soul ?
What to do ???
I Wish I knew….
But One Thing is Starting to Become Crystal Clear…. I NEED to Figure this out SOON…
OR At Least as SOON as POSSIBLE !